简短感受..

终于平复了些，

但是今天却不一样了.

因为再看到，再听到.

明明知道是这样，

就是退后不了.

每一次，都找不对的，而总是错的.

何时?

26/07/2010

一个人等车的时候，自然有很多的想法.

会出现疑问，也会出现没有答案的疑问.

很冷静地想了很多，

发现很多事都是自己想太多

也发现其实很多都是自己不想做的.

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发现自己有点想太多了.

莫名哪里会是我呢??!!

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不要先看着我，

我不是什么圣人!

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一起谈?

最后还是自己一个人解决

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想念一个人，想见一个人

是很正常的事

但是现在有两个人. 

哈哈

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太简短了 !

就是这样咯.. L0L

一个人走

一个人读书

一个人听歌

自然地有很多感触..

没有人在你身边跟你聊，

没有人回应你，

这种感觉就是一个人的感觉..

以前，一个人搭车一个人吃一个人补习一个人逛书局

而今天好像回到以前，

那种感觉浮现了..

有我的地方，就会有我的声音.

我总是不停地说话.

因为就是沉默不了.

当我真的不想说话，也连回应也不想，

不是emo,

而是真的不想出口声..

或许我需要热闹，群体生活

这种感觉很好..

这让我想起中学时Band的生活, 领袖营..

是令人怀念的!

一个人会累，

但再累，身边还有朋友，

还可以一样的..

寂寞是难免不了的，所以寂寞的时候就让它寂寞吧

寂寞以后，你就不寂寞了*??!!*

我不是坚强，我不是Da Gai Jie，

我只是能一个人完成我可以完成的事.

就只是这样..

我可以很酷，也可以很癫，

因为这就是我 ! 

=)

Busy~

College Life very busy ar!!

Every week either test, assignment, presentation or role play..

Lots of works! =(

Final is around the corner, one more month..

Time pass so fast, my 1st sem gonna end soon.

Why i study so much but can't get the higher mark?

Those missed lecture and class's people can even score higher than me??!!

wth oh??!!

disappointed you know?

haiz~

Finally role play the ended.

I over act la. ><

[Memories+ing my role play script, my script damn long la wei !]

Then, i curi tangkap our curse rep.

Room beside my room only. 

see, wat a nice pose.. haha

[*he will tumbuk me once he see it.. hor, cr? =P]


chiew yen, stop facebook, please face book, okay?
Final is coming soon.
you should get a good cgpa!!

*tony, i want see your friend ! 
2 week never meet him ad.. haha

宽恕

面对面坐着 眼神不屑一顾
挤出的笑容 看起来好突兀
我走错一步 坠入万丈深谷
还是会想起 你的荒唐糊涂
针刚刺在心上 血流已如注
背叛了幸福 拿爱当赌注
曾把感情放逐 何时能结束
遇到你我想停止游牧 让爱归真返璞
漂泊会落幕 承诺说得那么铭心刻骨
你的眼泪让我无助 你懂不懂我为爱忍辱
努力学习宽恕 原谅那错误
不甘我们的爱 死在半途
听见你的心还在哭
遗忘不及痛蔓延速度
希望你能觉悟 我真的领悟
伤口慢慢愈合 再被爱包覆

College Day..

First presentation in my college life..

Wow, damn nervous!

I'm not scare people who is sitting in front me,

i scared i can't do well on my part.. 

was stress the day before presentation.. =(

No comment with what i presented on that day: Perkahwinan Campur ~

4 golden flower *LOL*

Having Lunch with my classmates

Qi sin gang actually.. coz we are same age, same gap xD

girl gang

Lets crazy for the coming 2 years.. =)

哈哈 !

有时候，总觉得

[别人笑她太疯癫，她笑他人看不穿]

笑脸会是她面对大家的模样，

是，有时她的确是开心的，

但有时候真的不是，她却选择收在心里...

很累，有时候真的很累~

她不要做 Dai Ga Jie !

有个秘密，

她觉得是时候解除掉，

因为没有可能的事是该消除的!

但有时候却觉得现在这样也不错，足够了

I'm Chiew Yen @ 秋雁

*crazy right now LOL*

每一个人都会祝福自己喜欢的人

会找到他/她的幸福..

但其实他们的心在流着一滴一滴的血，

却要微笑地面对他/她..

这种感觉，大家懂吗?

你知道我在等你吗 你如果真的在乎我

又怎会让无尽的夜陪我度过

你知道我在等你吗 你如果真的在乎我

又怎会让握花的手在风中颤抖


莫名我就喜欢你 深深地爱上你

在黑夜里 倾听你的声音

就是这样..

有时候，

我们想要的却未必能得到，

我们有感觉的未必别人也一样，

我们不想的偏偏就会发生..

未能得到的就希望下次能得到，

别人没有感觉的就默默祝福他 / 她，

已发生了就去面对..

这些就是我们在生活里所遇到..

说容易，做就难 ~

还是她..

夜深了，

她精神疲累却不想睡..

她今晚的脾气不好，什么事都不顺耳...

回应的语气仿佛像想吵架..

她不知道真正的原因，不过她好像明白..

有时候，

她宁愿自己是冷血的，也不要拥有那沸腾的心..

没有人会触碰到她的想法，

或许她早已封闭自己..

或许有一天你会发现 
她选择改变原来的她..

有一种感觉很强烈，但却不是什么...

我好像又在每一个时候做一样的事...

这种感觉半年前发生，

停止了，

又再复发...

心里已有答案，但却还是闯了进去...

不可能发生的事...

不是你的就不是你的...

=)

Met 2 person who i wish to see today..

was a Great day actually.

* if tony read my post, 

he sure know what i'm talking about! xD shhh~

I'm emo recently.

I don't know the reason or maybe i know.

but i got no solution.

yes, i can be very happy to everyone but who know how tired am i?

Suddenly, i miss the moment that i sit behind the ns block.. 

The 0nly me is over there.. 

The feeling is good!

Tambahan pula, *malay/??!*

i don't like my group

 and this is not the group that i want.

Life can't be prefect, so why i can't get a perfect group lo.

I like my friend's groups, i like group X4

but i got no choice and i have to join my current group.

all the best ba..

俗语说,

对曾经爱的人会比较在乎..

她..

18年，她依然一个人...

如果你问她一个人累吗?

或许她会答你，习惯了!

她可以一个人走，

她可以一个人吃，

她可以一个人做很多东西...

但是如果有的选择，

她还是希望不要一个人...

有时候她会累，

因为她好像什么都可以一个人做，

有什么大家也会先看着她...

大家都叫她'大姐大'，

或许从以前到现在，有什么事她总是说可以，

所以到现在大家也一样认为...

她真的想有一天，她能脱下坚硬的外壳...

Quite busy this few week..

Busy with assignment and mid term examination..

i'm tired and also exhausted =(

24 hours is insufficient, give me 48 hours can mou?!

Why my course and my class got no yeng zai har?

and hor, not really like my class *no reason*

maybe i can't find friends who same type with me ba?!

and i over active? or?

i'm talkative and hyper active, 

maybe got somebody is unacceptable ba..

i love my primary's gang♥

they are most prefect friends in my life!

passed..

Yes! 

i passed my driving test and get a P license..

was nervous but luckily nothing wrong.. =)

Thanks! god bless..

Are you know who's chiew yen? xD

I miss my high school life..

Fresh back to the passed..

i feel like i was famous in my high school..

*perasan*

 Because i'm band conductor, people know me..

Because of the singing competition, people know me..

I miss the day i conductor in front of my band 

and everyone was looking at me..

I miss the day i sang on stage 

and my dear friends shout for me, support me..

Had a sing at Eternity Prom..

The feeling was good la wei.. 

This is the first time i ever had a couple sing on stage..

if you are chong hwa's student, are you know who is chiew yen? 

hahaha

*wu liao*

you're my friend..

I'm upset right now..

i really speechless with this case!

i don't why and what is going on?

Tell me okay?

don't ever want to escape me..

I got nothing do wrong..

Anyone can tell me what can i do?

haiz..

College Life..

One week more i didn't update my blog..

Lecture and Tutorial classes start and i'm a busy girl now..

I got class for the whole week days ..

The timetable is sucks and terrible you know!!

People atleast got 1 day break but got no such thing for me..

somemore my wed and thurs's classes start at 8am and end at 5pm..

between got 5 hour break! 

shit la~

is tired when finish the classes for the day.. 

The feeling is same with my form5 life..

After school and tuition, totally nak pengsan when reach home..

Now, have to read and understand all the notes, then do the tutorial..

Life now macam spm life.. ><

But what to do? Thats what i should do now and future..

Accounting, is it suitable for me?

I just go through everything and try my best as it is a tough course!

wish me good luck ba..

0pps, accounting got no leng zai..

i wish my tutorial class got those 'gou dai wai mang' geh leng zai la but NO!

and got only 10/27 guys in my tutorial class..

wah, sad and disappointed.. *kekez*

[my friends said: you come to study or gap zai?]

besides study, gap zai also a must as it can release stress ma, right? xD

hahaha :D

The most i hate is that my tutorial class got few lc guys! 

feel like wanna slap them.!

btw, i like my course rep but not the printing manager..

Assignmentsss and presentationsss are waiting for me..

haiz, my english speaking is sucks, how i stand in front to speak?

god bless me k? =(

Last but not least, thats all about my college life..

chiew yen is busying, stressing, qi sin+ing..

god bless god bless ^^

♥

I ♥ this Photo

jiayap ♥ yen ♥ king

My Dear Friend

她可以大声地站出来告诉大家

她的状态越来越好了

她找回她自己了!

那一个不值得的人，已经不再什么重要了!

撑过去了，她的坚强也战胜了!

放心，她可以好好了.. =)

She can do it!

A Brand New Life...

[Happy Mother's Day]

Gonna start my college life..

Have to start a new life which is different with high school..

Study for future le!

Assignment, presentation, test, internal & external paper 

are waiting for me! ><

 Work harder and harder le..

Accounting, you're very tough..

I scare of 'you', you know?

I wish i can do it la~!

Okay, is time to face the challenges..

A brand new life, new start

 is an good opportunity for me to arrange my things..

Is time to let go, is time to move on!

Something is worthless, got no point to stay the same..

so, wish i can do it..

I need time to kill all the thing..

Stay away from my life~!

拼命地，拼命地...

开始，她开始把一切弄得很凶..

她真的很气，很无奈!

她觉得，

如果越是要她伤心难过，她就会坚强!

所以她每一句话弄得很凶，

她就是不要让那一个人得意!

她很凶，但是她还是会想那一个不必要的人!

她拼命地撑，拼命地撑

连她自己都觉得不明白自己了..

明明就很讨厌，绝望了，

转了身却变得另一心情了..

她每天都告诉自己，''我很坚强，我可以撑下去!''

她责怪自己为什么会相信!

如果那时候选择不相信，现在就不必失去方向了..

她知道有天她能放下泪，过得很好很好..

但恐怕她得了恐惧症..

[她害怕真心被当游戏..]

她也很想把事情留下余地，

但是那一个人就是不领情，继续说，继续做他要的!

她真的很想问，真的很好玩吗?

而

哪怕有天他们像从来没认识过的人...

其实她很XX...

Movie Day

Yen ♥ Wen ♥ Mabel 

Movie with 2 of them.

[Ice Kacang Puppy Love]

Actually got 7 people, but they FFK! 

Isshh~~!

Was a Crazy Day!

[although just only the three]

Open your eyes, don't fall for people worthless.

Find someone who you can count on.

The worse thing to be cheated is love.

给时间她..

[玩]，

这个字代表着很多的意思..

大家心里的[玩]应该都是开心，欢乐，兴奋?

但是这一刻，

在她心里的[玩]只看见伤痛，泪水..

她发现原来自己其实很好玩?

有人可以利用她的真当个游戏?

好了，告诉她

真的很好玩吗?

看见她左右不能的感觉的真的很开心，很兴奋吗?

要一个女生接受其实自己很好玩，自己的真被人当游戏，

容易吗?

大家给时间她好吗?

因为她知道，她明白，她比大家更清楚

她多难受都忍着，但有谁会知道?

每一次眼泪要流下来时，她都会抬起头，眼睛望上..

每一次忍不住时，她就会用力吸气再大力地呼气...

她也一直告诉自己，

如果越是要她伤心难过，她越是要更坚强!

每一次告诉了自己，她都会突然坚强起来，

那种能打败它的感觉会突然冲来!

记得..

加油，那个她!